I want to share just a bit of my heart with you tonight. The past two weeks have been very hard ones for me. Some of it was of my own making, but some of it is just a part of life. Our pastor has taught us that life runs in cycles, and that's easy to remember when you're in a good cycle, but when the down times come, it's hard.
There is nothing seriously wrong, so don't worry! It's just the everday ups and downs of life, ministry, marriage, and motherhood. It seems like Satan preyed on those things, though, and I went through a time of just weariness and feeling overwhelmed, listening to him tell me that God doesn't really care, He sent us up here to let us fail - has anyone heard these things from this liar before? I spent some time crying, some time praying, lots of time reading the Bible, and some time reading the blogs of many of you who read mine. I was amazed at how many times someone would post a devotional thought that they'd gotten from somewhere online, or something that they would find in their own devotions, that spoke to my situation exactly. It was like God was in there stirring around in my innermost heart, reminding me that He is indeed here in North Vancouver, BC - right with me - and He has not forsaken me. Then I'd do some Bible reading of my own, and there He was again - imagine that! LOL And then I'd pray - brutally, honestly pray, telling Him my inmost thoughts, which He already knew - and once again, He was there, whispering into my heart that He does indeed love me - I don't know how He can, but He has assured me He does! You can think God doesn't love you, but if you're saved and you just get up in His lap and ask Him, He'll let you know He does! :)
So I just wanted you to know that many, many of you have been a blessing to me the past few weeks, even when you had no idea that you were, and I wanted to thank you. And if you've been nudged by the Lord to pray for me and you did - thank you! I know I'll probably have a down day or two again sometime, but each time I come through it is another time I can look back on and know that I'll come through again.